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Jan 5

New Year, New Beginnings

So remember like 2 months ago when I said I would start to blog… my bad. Holidays, birthdays, football, things got crazy around here!! Whew! I’m super sad to see 2015 go… it was one of my most favorite years ever! We welcomed the sweetest little addition to our family, Miss Sadie Leigh. She is so full of joy and sweetness I could just eat her up! It’s also been so fun watching Addy Lane become a big sister. Life is a little crazier with two but so much sweeter. I’m hopeful to share some of our fun first year as a family of four here with you. I’m sure you’ll hear me complain (or be a little TOO real) about navigating life at home with two kids, but I know this is what I was created for. When I’m up in the middle of the night, wanting to cry as much as they are, I try hard to remind myself this is what I am here for… to be their mom.

Photo by the Fab: Casey Edwards Photography She tried to photoshop out my double chin, but it is what it is. You are looking at that sweet baby’s first big sister kiss not my double chin, right?

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Some people can balance being a working mom beautifully, I was not being one of those people. I wasn’t doing either job well and I sure wasn’t serving God along the way. God showed me that while I was on my trip to Italy. 2016 will be the first year that I am a full time stay at home mom. I have no weddings on the books. WHAT!?!! This is so bittersweet. The 6 weddings I photographed in 2015 were some of my favorites of all time. STUNNERS.

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TWO of the weddings I photographed this year happened to be my cousins! (Two different weddings, they didn’t marry each other, haha) It was so funny to have my parents watch me do my job. I don’t think they’ve ever seen me so bossy serious.
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I’m hopeful to share all of 2015 weddings on the blog this year as well as some fun ones from years past I never posted. It hurts my heart a little bit to know I won’t be photographing any brides or fabulous wedding decor this year. I get some pains of jealousy when I see beautiful weddings online. BUT I’m trusting this is God’s plan for me right now. I’m also looking forward to reliving some of the weddings I’ve photographed here on the blog. I have been able to be a part of some amazing celebrations that I would love to share.

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While I won’t be photographing any weddings this year, I will be still being doing some photography and even videography. This year I joined the creative team at my church Chapin United Methodist. I’m learning videography and doing some photography for church media. Using the gifts God has given me for his glory is so rewarding. It has also been crazy humbling. In wedding photography it seems like everything is ALL ABOUT ME. Give me photo credit. Like my post on Facebook. Publish my photos. It’s different to create something for the church, for God’s Glory and not my own. I wanted my wedding photography to be that way, but I got caught up in pressures of the industry. I got caught up in ALL ABOUT ME. It’s different to take photos for a team and not put my name on them. It’s something God has been trying to show me. So different. So rewarding. So fun. So humbling. Less about me and more about Him. I’m excited to see where this new journey will lead.

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I want to share this journey with you. What I was doing wrong in my business, what I was doing right. How God has changed me. I’m still in the pursuit of learning to do my photography for God’s glory and not my own. So many contributing factors to me taking a step back from my business this year. SO many. I’m still super excited to share with you how it all began on my trip to Italy, buuuuuuut I have a few things to do first. One, I have to edit the photos I took while I was there 2.5 years ago. (Ouch. Personal photo editing always gets put on the back burner.) Two, I have to find my notebook. When I was on the plane ride home I furiously wrote down everything that happened while I was there. Some of the stories were just too ridiculous and I knew I wouldn’t remember everything. Not gonna lie, if you saw my office you would know that finding that notebook is a tall task. Messy is an understatement… and really I never unpacked my office from our move a year and a half ago. (insert the yikes emoji face, I pretty much use that on the daily to describe my life.) Hopefully I’ll get on that soon… But to give you a glimpse of my trip… It started with my brand new iPhone being stolen in JFK airport 20 minutes before I boarded my flight. Hysterically crying trying to get a quarter to use the pay phone. (Did you know they cost like 50 cents. WHAT?) Going to another country alone without a phone, totally cool right.

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SO basically 2015 in a nutshell. Had an amazing baby, photographed 6 fabulous weddings, became a full time mom and the pursuit of living for God and doing all things for his Glory. I’ll leave you with our Christmas card photo! Looks so sweet right? Hugging sisters. Reality was I couldn’t get either of them to look at the camera so I went with this one…real life people…

If your live in Chapin or the surrounding area… Please check out our church!! Chapin United Methodist Church. You will not be disappointed.



 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Nov 11

I should be sleeping…

I should be sleeping…. but I drank too much Diet Coke to sleep … can’t shut my mind off. I have too much to say. Too much to share. Too much change brewing. Today it hit me like a ton of bricks. God has changed me. He IS changing me. He has led me down a path I didn’t expect. This blog was supposed to be a place to share my photography. A place to show beautiful imagery… talk about beautiful weddings… share fun light hearted facts and chronicle my life with my crazy family. That never happened. I never found the time for it. I was always too busy for it. I would take photos for a “blog” that never existed. Images that no one ever saw. Just an empty space.

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My daughter, Sadie, turned 9 months old today. (WHAT!?!) That number, 9 months, is ringing in my head and my heart. Not because of her adorableness (I mean that’s obvious, in my eyes at least.) It’s the age Addy Lane was when God drastically changed my plans. I look at Sadie and can’t help but think of how different life was when her sister was her age. 2 years ago I was leaving on a plane to a photography workshop in Italy. That trip would be one of the best and worst trips of my life. One that would change me.

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I love this image so much. The blanket of warmth coming through the olive branches. Every time I look at it I’m reminded of how 2 years ago God started changing my plans.

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Photo Credit: Mike Larson 

I just photographed my last wedding on the books. A far cry from where I thought I would be when I first started my business and this blog. I’m finally ready to spend some time in this space. Finally ready to tell some hilarious stories and chronicle the journey of change in my life and business over the past two years. All starting with a trip to Italy…

 

 



 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Feb 11

Snow Day

In honor of another snow filled day here in South Carolina, I thought I’d share a few from our previous snow! This was Addy Lane’s first snow, so I was super excited to see if she liked it. It’s so funny how having a child makes you feel like a kid again. Here are a few photos from our fun family’s first snow!

  At first, she thought it was pretty cool, until it got on her hands and then she thought “this junk is COLD!” I didn’t photograph the “my hands are cold” freak out.

 After a total of 15 minutes of snow fun we headed in to warm up. Later in the afternoon we headed out to thew new house for a snow adventure and to take some more pictures of our snow bunny! Below are few photos of our new house in the snow. We’re a little behind on it with the crazy weather, but hopefully we’ll be finished to move in the Spring!!

 

 

And after a few minutes of fun… WHERE ARE MY GLOVES MOM?

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These are my favorite photos of the day. Daddy warming up her hands.

    I couldn’t love this little bug more. It’s so fun experiencing things for the first time all over again. Hope you are all staying safe and warm!!  – Court

 

 

 



 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Sep 6

Pregnancy & Addy Lane’s Arrival : Part One

Okay, SO officially I am the worst blogger ever. I’m going to do my best to make up for that!! Since my sweet baby is 9 months old today, I thought I would FINALLY recap my pregnancy and her birth and try and catch up blogging her life thus far. I can’t believe she’s been out as long as she was in. Crazy how fast time flies. This is a LONG post and I really hope it’s not TMI, so if your a guy you might want to pass. BUUUUUUT here we go!!

So, first things first. We found out we were pregnant in Costa Rica! How fun is that!! I was shooting a wedding there and we made a mini vacay out of the trip. I thought something was up because we were at an all inclusive resort and there were tons of desserts at the buffet and I didn’t want ANY. What!?! To me, that was a major red flag because I am always up for sweets! We were trying to decide if we were going to go scuba diving, so I decided to take a test. I had conveniently brought a test from home because I knew we’d likely find out on our trip. When I took the test I saw two very faint lines. Adam didn’t think it was true but I opted to let him dive alone just in case. I took a test the next day and the lines were a little darker and by the third time it was for sure a positive test. Adam still didn’t believe me, so when I took the third test I threw it at him. Not that super gushy romantic “we’re pregnant” moment, but whatev.

Costa Rica was an amazing trip and a Gorgeous Wedding!! Can’t wait to go back!!

Here’s our little bun in the oven at 9 weeks… sorry if it’s weird to post this.

And our announcement…

My pregnancy was so easy compared to most, but don’t get me wrong, I love to complain. I’m also a hypochondriac by nature so everything was super dramatic. When you are pregnant… DON’T GOOGLE ANYTHING!!

I did have some awesome cravings…  Fruity Pebbles, Cutie’s Oranges, and Rolos. Yes, really. I have no comments to defend this. It’s just as weird as it sounds.

And…YES. I am a profession photographer and I took iphone pics of my pregnancy. It happened.

I did, however, feel pretty awesome while shooting weddings. This was after my last wedding at 32 weeks…

Thanks Charlotte for this awesome iphone pic of me!!

Here’s me and the hubs, aka: “Uncle Si” at our annual Halloween party. I’m not going to lie, I thought my costume was quite clever. I was going to go with a magic eight ball, but I thought this was way better…

And…Yes, Adam is painting her room pretty much the same color as the wall. I had a mini meltdown about that. I thought it was a “light khaki” but apparently it was white. Another time for another drama.

I’ll debut her nursery on another post… or if I ever finish it.

OKAY… Boring so far, I know… but here comes the good stuff…

36 Weeks

So lets start a couple weeks before delivery. On Sunday night I started having back pains that came in waves about every 15 minutes or so… of course I thought I was in labor. Well I had back cramps all night, which come to find out were completely mild, but at the time I was sure I was in labor. I couldn’t sleep so I got up at 2:00am wide awake, packed my bag, and finished the wedding I had been editing. I thought that I was having that “surge of energy” people talk about right before having a baby. I had a doctors appointment the next morning so I thought for sure he was going to tell me I was 3 cementers dilated and starting labor.  I was miserable in the waiting room just tired and hurting with so much lower back pain and swollen with some serious cankles. So as I’m sitting in the check in area my sweet nurse asks how I’m doing and I said I was having waves of lower back pain every fifteen minutes. Since I thought they were contractions I was letting her know that I had been timing them and they were every 15 minutes. I was for sure this was labor. I’m so thankful to her for not calling me out on my ridiculousness… I know she was like mmmmk. So I get checked, nothing. Not effaced, not dilated, just miserable.  To make it even worse when I climed up onto the table my doctor laughed and said “Now THAT is a canckle.” So miserable and swollen I waddled home so disappointed.

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Okay, this is super embarrassing and I’ll try to leave all the awesome details to your imagination. Short version, tummy ache, accidentally overflowed the toilet and I was a little flustered so I hopped up and a little something came out. I couldn’t tell if I was having “pregnancy incontinence” or if my water had broken. Hypochrodiac. Seriously. So we called the doctor and he told us to go ahead into the hospital and get checked. How do you know if your water breaks or not? I mean some else can’t tell you if you peed or if your water broke. If your water hasn’t broken before how are you supposed to know what it’s like. But don’t worry my bag was already packed and in the car since I thought I was in labor the week before. When I got to the hospital I had to go through triage, they make you wait, put on a gown and a monitor, and then get tested. And… it turns out I just peed. Seriously, I thought I was going to die of embarrassment. The sweet nurse told me it was very common, but she was just trying to make me feel better. You would think you know if you peed of not, but apparently not. It was pretty awesome to tell our family… “did your water break, nope, just peed.” I was mortified that I wasn’t in labor for the second time… That $500 bill was awesome but the blow to my ego was worse.

This pretty much sums up how I felt.

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(Side Note: When you are that pregnant, it is really hard to put things into perspective on how lucky you are. I am embarrassed at my priorities and ungratefulness, but this is the true story.)

So the next week I had my 38 week appointment on Monday. I felt good at this appointment, no issues. I thought for sure they’d tell me I was progressing and things were moving along. Nope. Nothing. Not dilated. Not effaced. Nothing. My due date was December 19th and my doctor said he thought I’d be going to my due date or maybe even Christmas. I was so depressed, I cried on the way home…. “I don’t want my baby to have a Christmas birthday that’s terrible, I don’t want to have to have combination presents, and birthday parties, CHRISTMAS BIRTHDAY PARTIES!?!, no one is in town over Christmas, she’ll never have a birthday party. I don’t want to be in the hospital on Christmas, this is going to ruin everyone’s Christmas.” Seriously… this is what I was saying.  I was so upset that I actually went to the grocery store, like any pregnant hormonal woman would do, and purchased every sweet I could possible buy. I bought brownies, Ice cream, cookies and a piece of pie. Can you picture a 9 months pregnant girl buying every sweet in the grocery store. Embarrassing and cliche to say the least. I didn’t eat any of it but it felt good buying it to drown my sorrows. On my way home from the store I talked to my Mom and told her about the appointment, my sweet mother never lets me self loathe. She was so frustrated with me because I was so ungrateful. I wasn’t “letting go and letting God” I was trying to be in control. Of corse devensively I’m like How can I be in control of my own pregnancy Mom? I can’t make myself go into labor (believe me I tried.)  She remined me I had the best doctors and convinced me of God’s plan and how we could have the funest Christmas cookie baking and snowman themed birthday parties. I decided I could handle that. (Yes, I was that concerned about her birthday parties, I’m going to blame the pregnancy brain.)That night I took my evening bath and prayed. I relinquished control to God and prayed for his Will. I felt an instant sigh of relief. The next night I found myself swaying infront of the tv because I read somewhere dancing could induce labor. Some faith I had!?! I was back to trying to get myself  to go into labor.  I caught myself trying to be in control again. I was upset with myself for not trusting God. That night as my husband and I got into bed around 11:15 I asked him to pray with me. We said a prayer for God’s timing… no more than 15 min later my water broke… or did I just pee again?

 

This awesome selfie was taken right before I headed to my 38 week appointment…

Come back for part two of this story… it gets WAY more entertaining…

 



 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Mar 12

Introducing… Addy Lane

Oh My!! I have been gone forever. THIS is the adorable reason why! I can’t wait to tell you all about our sweet girl and her crazy journey to enter this world. Thank you so much for your love and support while I was on maternity leave. I am so excited to be back and share my new life as a mom. Introducing…

Addison Lanier Dox

“Addy Lane”

December 5, 2012  at 7:38 pm

 6lbs & 19.25in